The Inevitable Road Block

via Daily Prompt: Expectation

Even though I “know” that not every journey is smooth, it’s still kind of disheartening when I reach those inevitable road blocks. You kinda expect (and/or hope) that it’ll be smooth as butter but that’s just not how life works. Of course, in this particular case I’ve been ignoring signs that were saying “road block ahead!” or more like “there will be a road block ahead if you keep ignoring those aches and pains!”

Well, I ignored them and now my knee is in pain. It hurts to walk up and down the stairs and squatting is out of the question. God damn it, self.

Luckily we have a great chiropractor in town and, while the pain hasn’t subsided much yet, I feel a difference in my body and I am looking forward to working with him to restore balance in my body. I can also feel the pain “moving” which can sometimes be a good thing in that I feel that as one area gets better, the pain “moves” to another spot that needs a bit of extra attention and what better way to bring your attention to an area than “ow ow ow ow ow ow”… lol. 🙄

Anyway, seems like I’ll be hobbling on my journey for the next little while…

Happy February!

Alright! One month has already gone by in 2017. Mine’s been… a learning experience. 🙂

All in all I’m pleased with how the first month went, despite a couple of bumps in the road. Physically I feel motivated, mentally I feel determined to make some much needed changes, and spiritually I feel… okay. I’m itching to go outside and be with nature and breathe fresh air, especially being in the countryside. I’m not used to staying indoors as much as I have been lately, and it’s kinda wearing on my “connected” feeling, if that makes sense.

Back in the city, I’d have to go outside and walk to go to work and such so I was able to commune with nature albeit slightly, but at least I did at all. Even on cold, snowy, rainy days I’d have to brave the weather whereas here, I’ve no pressing matters to tend to so I mostly just stay indoors. It’s kiiinda been nice but I feel cabin fever around the corner. That’s going to change come Spring!

As for now, I’m working hard at sticking to my weightlifting routine and I’m happy to say that results are starting to show! I’m learning not to expect a crazy amount of change in a week, month, or even a few months. It’s easy to see other people’s transformation pictures and not take into consideration the amount of time that passed between the two. You kinda just look at the pics and subconsciously think it must have been some form of instant, you know? Well, I do at least. BUT again, I’m learning to stay consistent, accept and appreciate the little changes my body goes through, and take the mental change that can’t be captured in a photo much more seriously.

Happy February all; may it be even better than January!

(Early) New Years Resolution

I know, I know, it isn’t even Christmas yet… and I know, New Years Resolutions are going out of style. Still, I love having a “physical” representation of a new start, and New Years is the perfect time! And anyway, thanks to my mother-in-law, I got my Christmas present early:

The new FitBit Charge 2! (Picture taken from Google)

I LOVE THIS THING! I had the Charge HR which was lacking in so many ways. I may write a review in the future but I seriously, seriously love the Charge 2. If you’ve been looking for a fitness band, or have been on the fence about upgrading to the Charge 2, I have two words: DO IT!

Now, onto the fine details:

Weight Goal

My weight goal is 130lb. No timeline, just cut til I get there. As of this morning, I’m 136.4, so I’m not too far! My ultimate weight goal is 125lb, but baby steps is the best way to go in my experience. 🙂

Calorie Intake

Currently on a mini cut. 1600 calories a day is working pretty well for me; it’s only about 250 down from my TDEE but it’s making a pretty big difference. I can definitely tell my lifts are a bit harder, but not so much that I feel like I can’t do them.

I’m not in this to starve or  to over-restrict myself, or to get to my goal as quickly as possible. I’m building sustainable habits and not letting my happiness (and tummy) suffer for the sake of a better looking body. Granted, I am a little bit hungry throughout the day but that’s okay; I don’t need to be full all day every day… as much as I’d like to be. 🙄 😆

Weight Lifting

Last year I was doing StrongLifts 5×5, which was a great place to start, but I got bored pretty quickly. I’m currently doing my own variation of Phrak’s Greyskull LP. If anyone wants my version I’d love to share it, but both SL5x5 and Phrak’s are great places to start.

Anyway, I don’t have any specific weight goals for lifting, I’m just trying to add weight every session if I can. I’m not trying to get huge or compete, so even if I only add weight once per week, I’m happy. Still, I’m learning to push myself out of my comfort zone and remember that lifting weight isn’t supposed to “feel good” during. Not that I should feel pain or injure myself, but I am supposed to struggle; I am supposed to make weird noises and faces trying to get that weight up!


My favourite part! I’ve been eating a lot of frozen foods lately since I haven’t felt completely comfortable cooking here, but that’s finally changing! I usually cook the same things every day (bacon and eggs are love and life!) but I’m starting to venture out a little more. Like most people, I need to incorporate more fruits and veggies into my diet and… well, it’s a work in progress. What can I say? I love my meat and carbs. ❤

Look forward to some recipes as I get more comfortable and creative!

Are you guys setting any goals for the new year? I’d love to hear them. 🙂

My Fitness Road Map

I wanted to take some time to outline my personal “fitness map”; that is, the road I’m traveling to reach my goals. I am not a professional by any means. What I’m laying out is what I’ve learned over the years, solidifying my personal path through trial and lots of errors. This is what works for me, and it may or may not work for you. I encourage you to do your research, and don’t be afraid to try new things! So, without further ado:

Calorie Intake

This is most important part of fitness, whether your goal is weight loss or weight gain. I’m a big fan of the idea that “this is a lifestyle change, not a diet”. Diets assume a temporary change; one that you’ll trash once you hit your goal weight, so I try to stay away from that term.

I’ve experimented with extremely low intakes (1200 and below), vegetarianism, keto/low carb-high fat, and eating at maintenance calories. Maintenance is my absolute favourite. I never feel starved, and the stress revolving eating is non-existent. However, since it’s Summer time, I’ve begun a cut!

According to this TDEE calculator (my favourite one), my TDEE is 2024. So, my daily calories are set to 1700, which is just above a 15% defecit. I personally don’t like feeling too restricted and I don’t mind progress not being crazy fast, so this works really well for me. I still eat a good sized breakfast and lunch, and a relatively hearty dinner. I am a very, very happy camper here.

Food Allowance

I think a lot of people will disagree, but I eat anything I want. I can (and do) have McDonald’s once, twice, thrice a week if I feel like it. I’ll eat a normal sized slice of cheesecake. I’ll have a cookie, or an apple tart. I’ll have whatever I damn well feel like! And I’m still losing weight/re-sculpting my body! Like I said above, calorie intake is the most important part of this journey we’re all on. It took years for me to figure out what my proper calorie intake is. Seriously! Trial and error… so much trial and error. It’s so worth the effort though, because once you establish your boundaries, then you can play around.

That being said, when I do eat poorly, or things that are high in calories but low in satiation, I am so freaking hungry for the rest of the day, and I have less calorie allowance to work with. That’s the trade off though;”is this meal/snack worth being hungry for the rest of the day?”

The hard part is having the discipline to not allow the cravings which will follow the meal, nine times out of ten. I do have to fight off the urge to eat more bad stuff, but I’ve learned how to do that, so it’s not as daunting a thought for me at this point… but how did I do that you ask?

Intermittent Fasting

Now, I’ve always had a problem with eating. Emotional/stress eating which leads to binge eating; all that stuff. I attribute it to poor eating habits growing up, where my parents worked so hard to provide for us financially, that every other area in our lives suffered… but that’s a whole ‘nother story.

Then comes intermittent fasting (IF)! Here’s a great resource for the basics of IF. Basically, you have a “feeding window”, and for the rest of the day, you abstain from eating. It sounds a little scary, but most people are asleep for about half of the fasting window, so it’s not nearly as daunting as it sounds. 16:8 is the standard, 16 hours being the fast, 8 hours being the feeding window. I believe most people choose to skip breakfast, or skip one meal and just eat two bigger meals close to the beginning and end of the fast. Personally, I love eating and decided not to skip any meals, or have a full day’s fast. My food schedule (sounds kinda weird but whatever!) goes something like this:

  • 9AM-10AM: breakfast
  • 11AM-12PM: lunch
  • 4PM-5PM: dinner

And yes, I do eat lunch almost immediately after breakfast. It’s my favourite part of the day! What I love about this is once my body adjusted, number one, I’m rarely ever hungry past dinner time, and two, even if I am, I know I can’t eat so I don’t. “Nope, don’t do that, it’s after 5” became a full on mantra for me, haha!


Two words my friends: “heavy. lifting.” Oh, and: “screw. cardio.” I do five minutes before lifting just to warm up, no more than that. That’s just me though, I’ve never enjoyed cardio. Swimming is different because I don’t feel the sweat all over my body, and the water helps keep me cool since I overheat even in the winter time. Yuck.

Whether you’re a girl or a guy, heavy weights is where it’s at. My body is vastly different at 135lb doing weights 3x a week at 1700-2000 calories, vs 130lb doing yoga 3x a week at less than 1200 calories a day. Would you believe that I look slimmer now than I do at 130? I know it’s 5lbs on the scale, but on my body… it’s night and day. For the record, I stand at a whopping 5’2″ so 5lbs is a lot on me regardless!

I started off with Stronglifts 5×5, and now do basically the same but I’ve adjusted it a bit for my goals. As a beginner, I would highly recommend following the program to the T, since you may not yet have the knowledge to make any adjustments. The only changes I made to the program initially were starting out with dumbbells vs the bar because I was a little bit afraid to make a fool of myself, which I now see was silly. However, I can understand the anxiety behind it and will share what I did for the dumbbell variations if anyone is interested.

Aside from the physical changes (flattening belly, smaller thighs, woot!), mentally I feel like I’m the most confident I’ve ever been in my entire life. I love being able to hit new personal records on my lifts (I currently squat 145 which is 10lbs over my body weight. Whaaat?! 😀 I feel like a beast!), and I feel a constant drive to push myself to be better in all aspects of life. I look in the mirror now and I don’t see a failure of a person, I see someone who tries every day to improve, and works hard for what she wants.

I wholeheartedly attribute that confidence to the iron.

And ladies, you are NOT going to get “too bulky”, especially not overnight, and especially not without steroids or testosterone shots. I’ve been lifting regularly for eight months and I’m only now starting to see some real definition, and it’s juuust peeking out through my fat. Though admittedly, I wish sometimes that I could get bulky overnight because my baby muscles are sometimes too damn slow to grow!

13493634_947438505353836_1768401087_oThis is about five months of progress. Five months of regular lifting and I don’t look like Arnold Schwarzenegger. I’m up to about nine months now (but haven’t taken a new progress pic yet, stay tuned!) and I’m still not Arnold. Darn. But seriously, don’t be afraid of the iron, ladies. It takes months upon months upon months, and years upon years and so much insanely hard work to get to the point that most ladies are afraid of getting to overnight.

If you’ve been considering weight lifting and are afraid, just do it! You’ll thank yourself later!

This is getting way too long, but I just wanted to share a bit of what I do and how it’s working for me! Thanks for reading, and please don’t hesitate to ask me any questions! Have a great week everyone!

Half-Year Resolutions

I’ve been meaning to do a half-year check in with my new years resolutions… so here it is!

To recap, here are my resolutions from the beginning of the year:

– pay off debts
– get in shape

As far as debts go, I could be doing better but I’m pleased with where I am. My credit card was maxed out for nearly a year, and payments to my student loan and student line of credit were also at a standstill for about that long.

My credit card is completely paid off (yay!) and I’ve been keeping it topped up every month if and when I use it, which is rare now. That’s something I’ve never been able to do before so I’d call that a success! I’ve been making steady payments to my student debts, but the amounts are much bigger and feel so much more daunting to tackle. I’m doing my best though, and it makes me feel like such a responsible adult! 😀

Getting in shape has been a super fun and amazing journey this time around. I’m down 20lbs and I feel amazing; I’m in the best shape of my life. I have 10lbs more to go, maybe. I dream of being at 125lbs and below, but sometimes I wonder if that’s possible for my build, and especially since I’m wanting to pack on dat muscle. However, I have started a slow-ish cut and will be aiming for that regardless.

I went about it so poorly before. Restricting how much I eat to insanely low amounts due to a lack of knowledge of what my body actually needs. I binged more than once a week, and never saw the scale move down. I was always hungry, always thinking about eating, and always grumpy. I am the reason “hangry” became a thing.

It was beyond frustrating. It was beyond disheartening. I think of my two-year-long yoga “career” eating less than 1200 calories per day, and remember just being so exhausted during each class. Afterwards I felt great, but I couldn’t progress past a certain point strength wise. Again, beyond frustrating and disheartening. I can only imagine how much better I could have done with proper nutrition.

I could go on for days about what my current fitness/health/wellness routine is, so I think I will another day! But in regards to my new years resolutions, I think I did really well! I give myself a B+! 😀

Here are my half-year resolutions:

– get that damn 125!!!
– pay off my line of credit before year’s end
– get back into a regular yoga routine

I’ll check in by year’s end, but these are the personal goals I’ll be working on.

How did you do on your new years resolutions
Do you have any goals you want to achieve, revisit, or revise? Whatever it is, you can do it!