Back to Earth

via Daily Prompt: Uneven

Despite my (over-)confidence of 2017 being the best year ever thinking it’ll be perfect and nothing will go wrong, it’s inevitable that I’d eventually get knocked down.ย What goes up must come down, yes?

It’s easy to ride on the highs of positive emotion and forget that life is–and always will be–uneven. A smooth ride it is not. No sirree. It’s taken a lot of practice and about twice the amount of failing, but I don’t see stumbling as a negative anymore. Of course it sucks in the moment and it sometimes makes me wanna tear out all of my hair, but it’s much easier to appreciate the bad things (like fights with my husband) because we always walk away from it knowing how to love each other a little bit better.

Gotta take the good with the bad, you know? In fact, it’s the bad that makes the good so damn good. It’s the ugly parts of life that really makes you sit and appreciate the beauty of your life. It’s the cold chill of Winter that makes a scalding hot shower feel sooo good.

It’s only within the unevenness of life that I’m able to make progress in my mindset like this, no matter how slight. Now that I’m back to Earth, I fully expect (and eagerly anticipate) the lessons 2017 will bring.

New Creative Venture: Guitar!

Ah-ha! I’ve finally decided on a creative venture: guitar!

I’ve been involved in music most of my young life. In elementary school we played xylophone, recorder, and guitar–with alto sax in seventh grade. I played tenor sax in high school for three years, as well as sang in choir for about the same amount of time. Then… I don’t know, it just sort of dropped off the more I got into cooking/baking.

Basically, music has always been part of my life so it makes sense for me to dabble back into it as a creative outlet.

Thanks to my generous husband, I have a new guitar I can play with! I’ve also got me my beginner’s booklet and a cramp in my fingers–this is gonna be fun!

Cat’s Crossing

via Daily Prompt: Crossing

My husband and I are currently in the middle of introducing my cat to his cat. Anyone who’s had the pleasure of introducing cats knows the pain and frustration.

My cat, Zorro (the tuxedo with the grumpy face) is a really sweet little guy. Loves attention but is timid and a bit shy; definitely submissive–the most docile and submissive cat I’ve ever known or heard about… until…

Tumbles (the maine coon), my husband’s cat is a huge pussy (pardon the pun ๐Ÿ˜† ). Like, huge. I’ve never seen such a huge scaredy cat! She’s sweet too, but she’s scared of everything that moves which–admittedly–is a bit hilarious.

Well, that’s where the problem lies: I think Zorro knows this and is taking advantage of how “powerful” he’s become! He’s no longer the biggest wuss in the house! He’ll sneak around behind her, or just come right up to her and she’ll hiss–sometimes it results in a high speed cat chase, which results in more quarantine time.

It’s… a work in progress.

Go Away!

via Daily Prompt: Gone

There are so many things I want gone right now:

The snow. I love snow, but lately it’s been a bit overkill. Nevermind that I don’t even get to play in it, this is the dangerous kind of snow, you know? The kind that turns into impenetrable ice; the kind that makes every corner turn a death trap. My husband drives a truck and the last couple weeks have me anxiety ridden. That, and I want to go outside and walk/jog/run/hike damn it! I have a new area to explore!

This feeling of homesickness. I couldn’t wait to leave home. I didn’t have the best relationship with my family, and I was getting sick of the city life… but I miss them now. I miss the buses, the trains, the daily commutes. I miss seeing my brother, and randomly going for dinner with the other members of my family. I miss having food options. Here, it’s burgers and other American type of food, Mexican food, or Chinese food.ย I miss sushi. I miss curry. I miss Korean BBQ. I miss sushi. I miss sushi. Oh god, I miss sushi. I missย food.

My husband and I are currently living with his mother for several reasons. I really, really miss having my own space, and I like keeping my space clean and at least somewhat organized. They have so much room in the house but not much space, you know? She’s as sweet as sweet can be, but I’ve always been pretty independent so that her sweetness borders on overbearing. She’s always thinking of us, so she buys us snacks, treats, food, random shit; stuff we don’t want to have around or don’t have a use for–at all. For example, I offhandedly mentioned that I don’t mind cinnamon if it’s in food, so she bought me a huge cinnamon bun. I like apples, so she bought me two apple pies, on top of the one she bought for Christmas that I’ve been dutifully eating (probably my fault in that case). I know I’m being ungrateful and I love her very much and appreciate her thinking of us… just let me rant!

Expanding on my family a bit… I miss them a lot more than I thought I would. We were never a lovey-dovey family and I miss that, surprisingly. My husband’s family is very vocal with their love and it’s taking a bit to get used to. The first nibling/grandchild is about to be born and I can’t be there for it. She’s already drawing us all closer together and yet physically, I can’t be there. I want her to experience the type of family my husband has, and I want to be the one to shower her with affection and love. And yet I can’t be there for her birth. Gods that’s going to haunt me for a long time. ย I miss my family and our arms-length-love, haha.

I guess I don’t necessarily miss my life back in my hometown, but I miss having control over my immediate environment. I miss the old dynamic I suppose. I guess I’m feeling a bit down and grumpy today.

“The Light Inside”

viaย Haiku Horizons: Joy

the joy in my life
is nothing compared to the
light inside your eyes

– by Naaria

What is happiness if we are alone? What is happiness for ourselves if those around us are not? May we create happiness for ourselves and share it with everyone around us. ๐Ÿ™‚

“A candle loses nothing by lighting another candle”

– by James Keller

“Ready?”

via Daily Prompt: Year

another day and
another year gone by. so
bring it on! ready?

– by Naaria

I don’t think I’ve ever been so pumped up to start a new year. I feel like this is going to be a really, really, really good year. Considering how great last year was… 2017 may just blow every other year out of the water by the feel of it!

The fact that I had apple pie for breakfast definitely has nothing to do with how pumped I am. ๐Ÿ™„

Today I’m getting my energy back from the cold and stomach bug I’ve been fighting off, and getting ready to hit the weights hard tomorrow. Two weeks of no lifting makes Naaria a grumpy, restless butt.

Oh, and for dinner tonight? Filet mignon. ๐Ÿ™‚

Yep, this is going to be a really good year.

Hopes For 2017

via Daily Prompt: Hopeful

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A perfect prompt to piggyback off of my friendย Lochan’sย post for her goals for 2017.

2016 has been a wonderful year for me, following the nightmare that was 2015. I have been blessed with a wonderful, loving partner who I had the great fortune of marrying (in Vegas! My first time there and I had to go and be stereotypical!). He and his family have graciously welcomed me into their home and lives and made me feel welcome beyond belief. I have friends–especially one in particular–who have been there for me through my crazy, seemingly-uncontrollable, whirlwind-of-emotion meltdowns, yet still somehow love me and are more than willing to be there for the next one.

I am an extremely lucky person and I don’t know how to show my gratitude well enough.

Ever heard the saying: “the best revenge is living well”? Would that work for “paying back” the people who have been so good to me? ๐Ÿ™‚

My general plan for 2017 is to live well–really well. I want to become a better person in body, mind, and spirit. Here are my three main goals for 2017:

  • Continue on my path to physical fitness
    • Keep lifting and eating better
    • I gotta bite the bullet and do more cardio–indoors is fine but once the weather is warmer, I want to walk and run outside with my husband
    • There are apparently a lot of great hiking spots out here and I intend on taking advantage of that
    • That also means getting over my hate of the Sun… argh, but it burns! ๐Ÿ˜ฆ ๐Ÿ˜†
    • I want to be able to run without getting winded after 0.0000001 seconds, which would be a miracle
  • Bring myself back onto a spiritual path
    • I feel guilty that I’ve been really, really slacking on meditation and yoga practice; as in I haven’t done either seriously in years
    • The latter will tie into my physical fitness, but I know the best I ever felt in general was when I was practicing yoga regularly
    • Going to start with 3x per week, on rest days from lifting
  • Get a better hold of my mental state
    • I’ve been sleeping in til 10AM most days which, while comfortably lazy, is not what I want to do or be. I miss waking up at 5-6AM, but more realistically I’d like to wake up at 7-8AM
    • I’m going to find a creative outlet for myself; one that brings me closer to my higher self. I’ve yet to decide on/find one, but my mind keeps pushing me towards getting back into drawing… we’ll see
    • I’ve been dabbling with the idea of counselling, but I’ll have to see what’s available in my area and finances. Otherwise, I know there are some online services I can take advantage of
    • Other-otherwise, I’m going to journal at least twice a week, Monday and Friday, just to clear my head
    • Oh! Maybe I can cook/bake more as a creative outlet? ๐Ÿ˜€ It’ll give me something to post here too! Hmmm… ๐Ÿ™‚

I’m really excited for 2017. It’s going to be a year of positive selfishness; of fine tuning who I’ve become (thanks to the love and care of all those who have supported me throughout the years), into the person I’ve always wanted to be. I want to make them proud and show them that their efforts are appreciated and have made a significant impact on another person’s life. I want to make myself proud, and love who I am through and through.

I encourage you to write your own goals for 2017 as well! It’s always great to have people to share it with, and to encourage you to reach for those goals. ๐Ÿ™‚

Happy New Years to you all, and may 2017 bring you love, joy, and all the happiness in the world!